I’m going to totally blame my delay on this crazy attack of tree pollen allergies in my house. Like a good sinner I want to avoid pinning any of the fault on myself *giggling*.
Actually, we have been covered in the yellow junk and for the first time in my LIFE I am experiencing what many of you battle all the time – allergies. I do not envy any of you who have to deal with this year round. I feel like I’ve been hit by a Mack truck. It is still a sad excuse for not writing up a simple post; especially since I’ve had an answer to these questions since the weekend.
* What’s been the most challenging aspect of the 60/60 challenge this week?
This week was going pretty well. From my last post you may remember that I was also participating in a Reading my Bible in 90 Days challenge. I was caught up (even though the repetition was really – really – wearing on me. I may not have been hitting my ‘every 60 minute’ mark but I was reconnecting a LOT during each day. That’s because my kids were making me crazy, so I was praying on a very regular basis, that He would help me not bite their little heads off. I so wish that I were joking with that remark. I am not.
So, my biggest challenge, was focusing on seeking what God wanted from me, what God’s will was for me, and not just spending every hour asking Him to keep me sane. See, I knew what He was doing…. and I did NOT want to hear it.
* What do you think God is trying to do in your life right now?
Boy how I don’t want this actually in writing… but here goes:
He is reminding me that QUALITY of life is more important than the quantity of things in your life.
He is reminding me, through the imperfections of my children, that I am still imperfect….where did I think they got it from.
*What sin(s) have you been conscious of this week?
By pointing it out in my daughter, God has shown me that I tend to try to ‘improve’ upon His commands. I try to do them in MY time, or I put it off because I think it’ll work better if I do it THIS way, or on THIS day instead of RIGHT NOW.
My daughter does this. Drives me nuts. Everything from being asked to load the dishwasher to taking a bath. Part of my frustration is that I’m a total control freak sometimes and I can’t figure out WHY she can’t just do it my way. Why does she have to make so much noise, why doesn’t she start here instead of there, why doesn’t she see how EASY it would be if she just followed MY directions? (hmmmm, hey Lisa…. ever wonder how many times God watched you do it the HARD way because YOU thought it would be better that way? Did He yell at you? Did He stand over you and ask you WHY YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO DO THAT? No, He didn’t. He was patient. He let you do it your way. When it all fell apart and you hit the ‘consequences’ He stepped in and helped you anyway. When was the last time YOU did that Lisa? Yea, think on that)
*What are you learning about yourself through the challenge?
My children were not born acting this way. They each behave differently because I was at a different place in my OWN maturity when they were born. My parenting styles, my own behaviors, and my tendencies were different eight years ago. Doodlebug behaves EXACTLY how I did eight years ago. Taderbug is very much a duplicate of my behaviors from five years ago. Precious Bubbagirl, well, she is more like I am now. If I want my children to behave differently, then I need to model that. I also need to be patient while they readjust, buck the system, rebel, and change. While they are working on that, I need to readjust my attitude towards my Father, quit rebelling, and make a change.
There have been times when I let it go, and gave the control to God. Normally it was just for that particular situation but I gave up trying to control things. Go figure, but God handled it. Why can’t I seem to let Him do that on a daily basis with all the little things in my life?
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What’s been the most challenging aspect of the #sixty60 challenge this week?
The first day, by mid afternoon, I felt I was being insincere and repetitious. It was totally my fault as I had not really planned or prepared in advance for ways to reconnect when there wasn’t time to really sit quietly. So Monday morning, I scrolled through some email devotionals and found some Bible verses that touched me and wrote them on note cards. I decided to start the “Bible in 90 Days” Challenge, even though the group session was done, I grabbed the schedule and am reading on my own. This gives me something specific to do , to reconnect with God’s Word, during moments when I do have some quiet. I haven’t set my timer, YET. Focusing on the top of the hour has worked okay with the exception of the weekend, when we had company here. I did start to notice after a few days that even if I wasn’t stopping to connect, I was bringing God up in conversations with others more often, seemingly helping them to connect.
What do you think God is trying to do in your life right now?
There are big changes on the horizon for us. A new baby in about nine weeks. Our current lease will be up. Our old home mortgage is in loan modification (because we can’t pay rent and the payment) and we recently heard that our renters there may be leaving – soon. There are job changes (positive ones!) and extended family issues. This past week I really felt that God was reminding me that He has it covered. He will provide. It will be okay (even if it’s hard).
Psalm 37:23-24 “The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives. Though they stumble, they will never fall, for the Lord holds them by the hand.
I am, unfortunately, a control freak. I had learned to let that go some time back and it felt good. With this pregnancy, and my exhaustion, I am attempting to get ‘control’ again – of everything - as if things being done my way would somehow be easier for me. This upcoming week, I hope to work on letting that go. Lay it at the feet of my Lord, and trust in His plan, His way, His word, and His provision.
What sin(s) have you been conscious of this week?
I am angry. I speak harshly. I am selfish. I still have my “Pet Sin Rock” in my pocket, his name is Envy. I preach respect, and mercy and yet lose myself regularly and become mean and judgmental.
What are you learning about yourself through the challenge?
Shutting up is a wonderful thing. The ability to bite my tongue is a blessing I have yet to receive. If I don’t like the way others are treating me, take a moment to look at how I treated someone else. If I don’t want my kids to roll their eyes, or look at the television when I’m speaking to them, then maybe I need to take note of what I’m doing and where my eyes are looking when they are speaking to me. I am far from the Biblical wife and mother, there is much work to be done. I pray that this week I can open myself up again and allow God to be at work in my heart.